All I can think about is how much I would like to do something extraordinary.
Then how I lack the ability or imagination to do so.
I have no idea about anything.
I thought this list would help.
All I can think about is what I should be doing and where I should be, what I should look like and what I should have. All I can see is what I want my life to be like and what I’m not, and who I should be spending time with and what I should be able to do.
Then I stop thinking about that and look at what I do have now and what i have is nothing. Nothing. My life is just empty, and pointless. There’s no direction, no point to my time or how I spend it.
Everything just feels so useless and like such a waste of time.
I just hate myself really.